December 23, 2009

Love is a Commitment


Taken from the tumbler account "unbelievablebrowneyes.tumblr.com"

November 23, 2009

For the Friend of my Friend

I hate weekends like this. Life is stressful on days that should be the right time to take a rest. If only I could shout..! My head is aching and my heart is beating fast. Sometimes I can feel that my body is out of air but my brain is full of it.

I want to find someone who could really understand, cause I know it's easy to give advices yet it is very difficult to follow the same advices when you're on the same situation. It's very easy to say the things we want to say cause were not on that person's shoes.

One day, the friend of my friend is asking for the best thing to do about his/her problem. People around me have bits of advices, yet I only came out with a smile and a teary eyes....cause I know what is the best thing to do yet I can't utter the words cause I also know that the best thing to do is the hardest thing to follow.

How could I give him/her some help when I, myself wants the end of the world right at this moment, when each and everyday passes yet I can't seems to feel it, when Christmas is fast approaching to everyone but it is running away from me, when I want to talk yet no one dares to listen and no one seems to care.


Para sa friend ni friend...if you need me...I'm here, but please bear if I can't say anything but I can cry with you, I'm here if you need ears to listen without judging you!

November 7, 2009

Have Faith...Trust HIM


"Forget about all the reasons why something may not work.....You only need to find one good reason why it will"

I was stuck on a heavy traffic last night at SLEX. I wanna' jump out of the jeep and run my way to our office but that's impossible. Friday is always a "traffic day"...for those who are on their way to Manila from the South. But that incidence gave me enough time to reminisce the old times, remember my friends, pass some quotations to everyone on my contacts/phonebook and think of some plans for the future. My mind was too occupied by different thoughts when I suddenly gazed on a neon board....a sign which is so familiar the signage of "Asian Hospital Medical Center" plus the "Vivere" Neon Board. At last we're at Festival exit. Two steps away and I'll be late...I arrive at the office at exactly 10:03 p.m.

And now, I am looking forward to next Friday. The former class of Fourth year-Rosal are planning a reunion at Mall of Asia. This will going to be a funny, exciting and spectacular day, for sure. Let's add the boys' craziness plus the girls naughty attitude together with my down to earth character when I'm with them...OMG it'll gonna be "A DAY TO REMEMBER". I'm excited but before that I have to close all my pending deals with the clients so that my application for leave will be approved. I'll pray for it.

TGIS....it's rest day till Monday morning..I'll take time to rest not only my body but my mind as well. The right time to be away from the world of stress and chaos.

November 6, 2009

I'm Back

At last, I'm back!!! It's been a long time and I'm glad I have the courage and strength to write again and let's add the sound mind as well. I was in trouble for the last few months and it was God's guidance that brought me to my senses again though feeling blue is natural in a minute or 2 for every half an hour (LoL).

Thanks to the quotes forwarded by my friends as well as the quotations of Bob Ong. I just realized that I deserve to be happy though I'm not perfect and I will try my best to be on the right and positive track.

More to come but I have to rest for now....See yah guys!

July 15, 2009

The Long Winding Path that I Choose to Travel!

Right now, I couldn't think of anything better but to reach the end of this path. I want to finish it, but will I able to? I want to rest and give-up the fight because I can feel that my energy is slowly drifting away. I want to hold on but my mind is giving-up.

I feel like a candle with both ends burning while the flame is soon to end. The fight of a once fearless heart is soon to end too. I never thought that this will happened. Pain strikes me at my weakest point and they hit me on my weakest part.

I know it's not only me who's hurting but above all, I am the one who was really hurt and still suffering the pain of their carelessness. What have I done wrong? All I did was to give my trust and unconditional love but they took my feelings for granted.

When people loose their breath, it doesn't mean that they've given up.....but rather it's already time.......Someday I'll be gone but I will never be forgotten by those people who loves me the way I deserve to be loved.

Roselle Santos David


Aaliyah Song

every once in a while
i see a smile
it turns my day around

girl with those eyes
it can stare through the lines
and seewhat your heat was saying

think of aaliyah left
dont cry i know
she'd want it that way
when you think of aaliyah left
dont cry i know she'd want it that way

friend of a friend
friend 'til the end
thats the kind of girl she was
taken away so young
taken away without a warning

think of aaliyah left
dont cry i know
she'd want it that way
when you think of aaliyah left
dont cry i know she'd want it that way

i know you
and youre here
in everyday we live
i kno her
well she's her
i can feel her when she sings

aaliyah ,
where are you now
are you far away from here
i dont think so
i think youre here
taking our tears away
think of aaliyah left
dont cry i know
she'd want it that way
when you think of aaliyah left
dont cry i know she'd want it that way

i know she'd want it that way
i know she'd want it that way
i know she'd want it that way
i know she'd want it that way

Sa Ugoy ng Duyan



Sana'y di nagmaliw ang dati kong araw
Nang munti pang bata sa piling ni Nanay
Nais kong maulit ang awit ni Inang mahal
Awit ng pag-ibig habang ako'y nasa duyan

Sana'y di nagmaliw ang dati kong araw
Nang munti pang bata sa piling ni Nanay
Nais kong maulit ang awit ni Inang mahal
Awit ng pag-ibig habang ako'y nasa duyan

Refrain:

Sa aking pagtulog na labis ang himbing
Ang bantay ko'y tala, ang tanod ko'y bituin
Sa piling ni Nanay, langit ay buhay
Puso kong may dusa sabik sa ugoy ng duyan

Sana'y di nagmaliw ang dati kong araw
Nang munti pang bata sa piling ni Nanay
Nais kong maulit ang awit ni Inang mahal
Awit ng pag-ibig habang ako'y nasa duyan

Sa aking pagtulog na labis ang himbing
Ang bantay ko'y tala, ang tanod ko'y bituin
Sa piling ni Nanay, langit ay buhay
Puso kong may dusa sabik sa ugoy ng duyan

Nais kong matulog sa dating duyan ko, Inay
Oh! Inay

June 23, 2009

The Guitar


If I would be given a chance to exist again after a millenium, I hope everything would be the same except me.....I wanted to be a Guitar. A guitar where you can play notes that gives music to the world, songs that ease the pain and compositions which expresses one's feelings.

I tried to play the guitar once, but I'm a failure. I love music but music doesn't love me. I admire those who know how to do it. Maybe it's a combination of talent and determination. But I lack those qualities.

You want to know what I envy with the guitar?...because it's owner loves it so much. Carry it on their back and hug it when they are playing some songs. One thihg is for sure, the owner won't let the guitar be parted to him. He will carry it no matter where he goes

I wanted to be like a guitar, naive to pain and sufferings but given enough importance and love.






The Other Way Around


Afflicted


There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you. (Maya Angelou)


Yesterday, I had my hair fixed and I'm planning to buy some clothes. I want to buy new appliances and if still on the budget would buy other things.

What am I doing? Spending lavishly with the hope that somehow, these material things would ease the pain I'm feeling right now. I am trying to be strong, pretending that everything is fine and normal though inside me, I know there's something wrong. A burden which I'm not sure if I could carry and surpass till the end.

I feel so hopeless, I feel so confused! If reincarnation is true, then maybe I was a bad person in my past life. That's why God is punishing me now. Giving me unending pains,sufferings and hearthaches which could end my life.

Why me? I'm not the worst person living on this damn whole world. But why should it be me and not them? I don't know who's to blame for what's happening to me. The pain is striking too hard on my heart and even I'm asleep, it's still chasing me.
Where should I go from here?

May 22, 2009

Innocence?



I spend almost two hours searching the net while thinking about the best article that I could write for today. Searching from one topic toanother but still I could't focus. Suddenly I was directed to this picture. A perfect picture of "Innocence". If only I could go back to childhood, I would spend every second to the fullest. I miss those days when I am playing under the tree near our home. Playing from morning till dawn. Back then, there are no worries, no problems. But looking at this picture in details, if you are a keen observer, you will notice one thing. That I will leave for you to find out.....Guess what? hahahaha......!!! This picture is taken from http://www.flickr.com/photos/eduardc/2598203026/
Thanks for the picture !!!!



May 20, 2009

I hate Injustice!


I refuse to accept the view that mankind is so tragically bound to the starless midnight of racism and war that the bright daybreak of peace and brotherhood can never become a reality.... I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word. ~Martin Luther King, Jr.

Working at night gives me ample time to sleep in the morning. Yesterday, I wokke-up at around 6 in the evening and as usual do the ritual, 5 minutes of sitting down doing nothing. I opened the television...how I wish I didn't!
Another news about the mail ordered bride Filipinas and the appeal of government leaders to the news which they considered degrading not only to the Filipino women but to the whole Filipino race.
I myself feel the same. Remember the comment about the Domestic helpers, the Filipina maid who was forced to dance and a libelous comment about the medical profession in the Philippines? I feel sorry and sad because.....I AM A FILIPINO!
My appeal to our fellowmen:
1.)Don't underestimate the Filipino domestic helpers, for without them who will take care of yoru household and your children. They are sacrificing and ignoring the pain of spending their years away from their families...all these sacrifices they endure for the benefit of their children.
2.)Don't make fun of your household maids. They are humans too, created by God for a purpose. They are obeying your instructions not just for money but to make you happy.
3.)Don't criticize our medical schools and practitioners. They are practicing the medical profession and made their oath to save lives.
Always remember that we can find people from all walks of life (rugs and elite) even to the richest and powerful countries in the world.

May 19, 2009

Seven Wonders of the World

video

Due to the complexities of life, we tend to focus our attention on tangible things. Those things we can have if we have money.

I remember one lesson in my history class. My students and I are discussing about the ultimate goal of human existence. According to some philosophers, we should focus ourselves in attaining "happiness". If we define happiness based on material things, then we won't reach our ultimate goal because humans crave for material things is unending.

We should direct our pursuit of Hapiness to it's real essence. Finding hapiness through the comfort of God's love and accepting Him as our savior.

The video above was sent to me by "Merritt Hurst" a friend of mine who never fails to send me inspirational messages and breathtaking pictures which reminds me that that life on earth is still worth living for.
To Merritt, thanks for everything!

May 18, 2009

Life's Uncertainty

"You need to feel a bit deprived at times- a bit lonely and in a way incomplete. Because if you got everything, would you still look up to heaven?"

Sometimes I thought life is unfair. Despite the fact that we're living a good life, we're being deprived of the things that we want and worst, the things that we need. I keep on asking questions why life is so unfair. People thought that I have everything and I'm lucky. But the fact, they never knew me at all. They're not aware that I have my own share of hearthaches and despairs in life.

But of course, things like that shouldn't be left open for public viewing. I have to save something and I knew it should be open for me and for HIM who always help me. In between the hardships, my UPs and downs and all the troubles, I am trying my best to remain upright and optimist though sometimes it feels like giving up.

Standing still and being quiet will give you the chance to weigh everything and see that in this huge playground called the "world" and the never ending game known as "life" in which the rule is "survival of the fittest, you will realize that you have something that will make you standout among others and realize that you are sometimes better than your detractors. What's next? So be it, just smile at them and leave everything to HIM who knew every single strand of injustice.

At this point in time, there are two things in me that keeps me holdin' and keeps me kickin'. [1] the only thing left inside Pandoras box when all else flew "HOPE" and; [2] the most important among the three virtues; "LOVE"