After 6 years of knowing you, this would be the first time you'll celebrate your birthday without me. I am so sorry. I know you're expecting me to come, but I do hope that you will understand that the situation right now doesn't permit me to come and celebrate with you. I am following your advice not to waste my life for those people who doesn't know how to care for people who care a lot for them. I am still fragile and the long time we're not able to see each other is really breaking my heart into pieces. However it is not advisable to see you, even in a glimpse because I know there are people who will celebrate with you that would remind me of the emotions and heartaches I wanted to forget. You are a person I love so much and I know you're hurting too but I promise we will get through it and someday I will see you again. I hope you bear with me if I would ask for an ample time to let the wounds heal, though I know the scars won't vanish, but I do pray for the best. I promise I will be the best person that I can be and when the time comes to see you again, you'll be proud of me.
Though I wasn't able to send you a message on your birthday, I know you would understand and would understand deeper if someday you'll be able to read this letter. This is for you. I can't send you a birthday card today, but this letter should be in it if I could. Someday, if you'll come across with this letter, I wanted you to know that I love you so much and I will never forget you and your birthday. Though you've never given birth of me, I still love you as my dear Mama who I know loves me too, without boundaries, without expectations, no if's and no but's, just pure love of a mother to a daughter. Happy Birthday Mama Lita. I love you.