Yesterday, Mama sent me a text message and here it goes; "Good evening, how are you, hope we could see each other, we really miss you so much, love you forever. God bless and guide us always. Take Care".
My heart was ripped to million pieces when I read the message, I wanted to to press the reply button or run to her but there's nothing I could do. I wouldn't give myself the chance to waste all the effort I had this past few months to go and mend my broken heart. I don't wanna do this but I have to. I hope you understand mama. I love you and I miss you too.
She's neither my biological nor adoptive mom. She's the mother of my ex-boyfriend for 5 years (how and why we separated? well, let me gather enough strength to blog about it, but definitely, I will) with whom my relationship ended the hard way. His family became my second family, they treated me as their own, and even up to the end of it all, they stood for me against all odds.
CONFESSION: I wanted to turn my world upside down whenever I feel the pain/hurt in my heart. The pain of missing them makes me feel dizzy, weak and vomit while the longing was still there.
QUESTION: What should I do? (please advise)