Money Matters but it doesn't Matter

If the issue is money, I don't want to talk about it. I haven't save enough money from the last few months.. I feel bad when I can't feed the bank account. I would like to live my life on the policy of Giving, Saving and Living on the rest. I heard this from a religious organization in the television and I know it made sense. For some reason, I can give............... and live on the rest............... but not save!!!

As a human being, sometimes I found myself so envious of  those girls driving their own car. Those rich people having their mansions built on the most famous and well know subdivisions in the land even though my real dream is just a simple home. When can I go non stop shopping and travelling? I know the answer lies from nowhere. I know shouldn't think about these things because in doing so will bring me to nowhere and most apparently to the land of destruction.

Rather than having self-pity, I would rather count the blessings. Instead of what is gone, count what is left. Yes, I haven't save enough but I am glad that all those money intended to feed the bank account were spent entirely for my health and in providing the needs of my love ones :P.

Remember the day I told you that what  I can taste is only the extremes?  I had an appointment with the doctor last weekend and he told me that if we cannot fix this problem it will destroy my taste buds and sense of smell and they might not go back to normal anymore. I am terrified with the news! What will happen to me if I cannot distinguished even the smell of an edible and spoiled milk.

I know I have to deal with it, no matter what. I kept on praying that everything will fall into place. I have another appointment this weekend to see if I need further examinations and laboratory test. Let's see what will happen but I am staying positive. The doctor gave me thumblike medicine which are so difficult to swallow and not to mention are very expensive. And if funding this medications means having another job, I would gladly take it by all means especially now that expenses are becoming bigger and bigger. I have high hopes that everything will be back to normal  in no time. Please pray for me and have a great weekend everyone.