What now?

Do you still remember how your blogging saga started? 

For more than a week now, I am making my journey back to my old post, wondering what have I written in almost 3 years. Yeah, 3 years this coming February but it's not obvious. There are many bloggers out there who started their blogs just a year or a few months ago but their blogging success reaches the mountain top. I might have the same success if I created my blog for the sole purpose of earning online. But going back to my old post in like journeying back in time where my purpose in blogging was rekindled.

Truth be told, 3 years ago, I created this blog for the mere purpose of curiosity. I just wanted to know the feeling. How to do it and how it feels to own one even though I have no idea what to write. I can't even remember it's first name. As life goes on, I never did imagine that his space would be my solace in adversity. A place where I could vent my emotions. And going back to my old posts somehow made me happy because of the life I was able to give to every word I had written. Very spontaneous because it reflects my life, my feelings though not obscure because I do not seek pity when I'm down.

And today, another day to pour my heart's content. As I continue with this journey for the love of writing, I sometimes found my brain empty of words and my heart void of interest. And today I found the culprit for my dilemma, it's the fact that I lost the soul of my post, waiting for heaven to bestow me with a topic to write instead of wring my heart out.

I gained great friends through this space and this space will continue to be like how it started - the home of my thoughts. If ever comes a time that I am serious with earning online which is by this time I have no idea how to put to life (if you have idea let me know), I will put up another blog.

What now? I will continue this journey together with the great friends I found while reminiscing the days  how our great friendship started. Felicity isn't it?

Yeah, I'm Single!

Today I will let my heart speak for itself regarding Pearl's post's "10 Facts of Being Single".

If you've been a constant Tumblr bystander, you have probably read these reasons and bliss of being single and of course they give solace to an aching heart.

1. You won't be single forever. You'll find the right person sooner or later.

2. Don't worry if you're single. God is looking at you right now saying, "I'm saving this girl/boy 

     for someone special.

3. You're single because God is not yet done writing the perfect love story for you.

and so on.....and so forth....! and I CONFESS...,

i got it here...

With this I may gather different reactions both positive and negative but like what I said, I'll let my heart speak for itself.  I'm turning 20something on the 5th of May and I can attest to the fact that people change their views when they found their mature mental self. If I would be on my teenage years, I'll probably freaked out seeing couples around me but now, I see it in different perspective (the bliss of aging, LOL).

I'm single, it's my choice.  I had a serious conversation with my heart and I know it's not yet ready to commit to another relationship. I don't want to push it to its limit just to show people I'm not alone. Not in any way I would commit to something I don't really want.  Everything has its own time and I don't wanna rush things.

I previously let  a part of myself drift away when I committed myself to loving someone. That is something that shouldn't happen in any kind of relationship and that is one lesson I learned the hard way. I'm not saying you should be selfish but more so do not let yourself be a second choice of yourself.

I am still gathering the few departed debris. When I'm complete and ready, that will be the time I will say yes to someone who have my heart and is eager to wait.  When and where and who is the lucky one, God only knows.

Fact: I love vegetable salad. I love running, hiking and cycling. I love being with my friends even if it would take me long hours inside the bus just to see them. Those are realities I discovered when I suddenly got out from a previous relationship.

Why so late? Because I was busy taking care of "he who must not be named's" (I copied Al's way of naming someone) heart that I forgot to take care of mine.