Write it on your heart...

I did had a fabulous birthday. I thought this would be another year full of jitters but I was wrong. I was at work when 12:00 am strikes. The lights went off and everyone sang the never ending birthday song with one of my friends holding the cupcakes with candles burning and bursting like fireworks. They're super awesome like that.

The surprise didn't end there. One of my friends asked if I was up for an adventure. I was of course very delighted. She said it's a surprise and told me it might take a long drive before we reach the place and we may head home at night. Sad to say we didn't pushed through with that because my  family went here for my birthday. I only have the morning to spare because I want to head to my apartment asap so I could spend time with them because they will also leave soon.

We canceled the said adventure and they asked me to accompany them to run some errands instead. We walked round and round then they told me they're hungry. I persuaded them to eat at McDonald's but they declined the offer. They insist that we wait for the commercial complex to open because they needed to buy some things. So what else can I do but oblige to their wishes. 

To cut the long story short, never to mention they let me wait under a tree with the blazing heat of the sun, Red Ribbon opened and it turned out it was another surprise lunch for my birthday. They had cookies and cream with oreo cake for me with candles (again). It was a glorious day with chit chat among close friends. They really made my day special. 

We went home afterwards and there's my family, waiting for me. We had a simple celebration, spend the weekend with me. When they left, I was full of good spirit that I managed to turn my apartment up and down and cleaned every space. I found out I have pieces of the kraft posters I haven't put to place yet, so that was indeed a perfect day to do so. Now my wall is decorated with lovely pieces from Papemelroti, my favorite shop in the mall full of crafts, recycled papers and all things with antique look and awesome. 

That's all for now, I will leave you with the poem inscribed at one of the kraft posters by Ralphy Waldo Emerson. A prefect  piece to brighten up each day. 

Write it on your heart

that every day is the best day in the year.

He is rich who owns the day,

and no one owns the day who allows it to be invaded with fret and anxiety.

Finish every day and be done with it.

You have done what you could.

Some blunders and absurdities, no doubt, crept in.

Forget them as soon as you can, 
tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely,

with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense.

This new day is too dear, with its hopes and invitations,

to waste a moment on the yesterdays...

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

And thank you very much for all the greetings. It was very much appreciated. 

Forgiveness

No one can change the past, but you have the power,

as of this moment, to see it differently

Whenever I buy a book, I always record the date and place where I get a piece of my collection. As per record shows, I acquired my darling above on March 02, 2011 at St. Pauls. I bought it on purpose. I remember that day when I immediately snuggle myself on the couch as soon as I got home and scanned the pages. It took me two weeks in reading, reached page 52 and stopped. Since then, I let it rest on the bookshelf and never opened it until yesterday.

I know you have a question. Why did I stopped reading when I was so eager at the beginning? Because at page 52, I go back and started at page 1 again and the same scenario repeats itself. I was reading but I couldn't remember any single detail. 

I realized that no matter how I tried to forgive, my heart wouldn't take it to circulation unless I perceive the past with brand new eyes. Early last year were days of me wanting to move forward, walk away from past pains and before doing that, I know I have to forgive. That was the purpose I was talking about when I bought the book. But I never realized that no matter how hard you wanted to forgive, there are certain elements that should go along with it to make the process genuine.

What I'd read until page 52 was enough food for my eagerness to forgive and it sums up what I needed to know to understand the process I have to go through. That forgiveness is a process. A long process that will take time and only time itself will let you feel when it's the right time. That it's hard to bestow forgiveness when  the one who hurts us never asked or never wanted for reconciliation. Then I know I don't have to push my heart to forgive just for me to walk forward, it will come in due time.

From then, I left everything to fate and worked with my own terms searching for happiness that seems so distant and obscure. Trials, troubles, hindrances along the way like I was on a marathon with obstacles. There were times, I grasped laughter with my bare hands but I know the laughter is not pure cause there was a room in my heart bothered with the thoughts of the past.

I repaired my broken pieces, put a little oil to make me function as before and alas, my efforts made myself like a new invention. Seeing what I left behind in a new perspective gave me a clear view of what lies ahead. I started to acknowledge the human and good qualities behind the person who hurt me and I know if not for the scar of the wound of an accident that involved both of us, we could have been great friends. And like what I used to say, we're victims of circumstances and no one is vulnerable to pains.

Until I finally  had a glimpsed of a bright day ahead. I received an email with the sender's heart in it. I felt the sincerity and the purity of the intention. A big step in repairing the damages of our hearts. It was then that I know everything will be put to rest, as I am ready to forgive and she is ready to make amends. That was one of the day when I felt like a huge rock was lifted from my heart. 

Walls started to break, and a bridge between two rivers was constructed for us to meet. Awkward at the beginning but I'm glad we did. A kind of special day for I not only lift a burden from her heart but I also free mine as well. 

I wish you well all the time and be the best of a lady that you can be. You will always be in my prayers as I am into yours. Take care and thank you. I can say no more, I'm overwhelmed.

What now?

Do you still remember how your blogging saga started? 

For more than a week now, I am making my journey back to my old post, wondering what have I written in almost 3 years. Yeah, 3 years this coming February but it's not obvious. There are many bloggers out there who started their blogs just a year or a few months ago but their blogging success reaches the mountain top. I might have the same success if I created my blog for the sole purpose of earning online. But going back to my old post in like journeying back in time where my purpose in blogging was rekindled.

Truth be told, 3 years ago, I created this blog for the mere purpose of curiosity. I just wanted to know the feeling. How to do it and how it feels to own one even though I have no idea what to write. I can't even remember it's first name. As life goes on, I never did imagine that his space would be my solace in adversity. A place where I could vent my emotions. And going back to my old posts somehow made me happy because of the life I was able to give to every word I had written. Very spontaneous because it reflects my life, my feelings though not obscure because I do not seek pity when I'm down.

And today, another day to pour my heart's content. As I continue with this journey for the love of writing, I sometimes found my brain empty of words and my heart void of interest. And today I found the culprit for my dilemma, it's the fact that I lost the soul of my post, waiting for heaven to bestow me with a topic to write instead of wring my heart out.

I gained great friends through this space and this space will continue to be like how it started - the home of my thoughts. If ever comes a time that I am serious with earning online which is by this time I have no idea how to put to life (if you have idea let me know), I will put up another blog.

What now? I will continue this journey together with the great friends I found while reminiscing the days  how our great friendship started. Felicity isn't it?

Welcome Back to My Christmas Directory

Hello September! I know it's already half of the month and I barely noticed it, though I am staring at the calendar everyday.

It's Ber months again and that means taking your jackets and sweaters out of your closet because the wind is colder than it was during the rainy season. It's the time for a happy environment, merry makings, delicious food, sparkling lanterns, gigantic Christmas tress, gifts and the time of giving and loving. How could I possibly miss September 1?

But it's better late than never. Today September 16, 2011, (exactly 100 days before Christmas) I will give life to my Christmas Directory page for the second time. It's a page dedicated for Christmas where I put all the things I am planning to do until December 25th, the gifts I already collected and all the plans and preparations for Christmas. 

I hope with this simple manifesto I can continue showing kindness to people everyday eventhough the season ends - in any way the spirit of Christmas should always be present everyday. 

We have different cultures and traditions in celebrating Christmas but what is important is we're celebrating it's real essence - the birth of our savior.

Advance Merry Christmas everyone and I am hoping you could join me in my countdown.

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From the Bottom of My heart

2_ years ago, on this same day,  my mother risked her life to bring one child to existence and that child is no other than me. 

I was sitting quietly on my station, reading posts with no intentions of posting anything. I am always lost for words on a special day like this. But this awesome man made may day. He declared a holiday at Once Acre of Diamond county and today, Once Acre of Diamond will be 14th Street. Not to mention the wonderful combination of the banners. 

"A happy Heart deserves a Happy Treat"

and from the bottom of my heart,

Thank you very much, You made my day!!!

from One Acre of Diamond

Quick One to Say Thanks to All

Just a quick to thank  everyone for the well wishes and to Bloggy friends who sent me email, messages on facebook and twitter. I really appreciate it. You guys had my heart swollen for all the care and love you extended! Thanks a lot (Gnetch, Ratz dear, Janjan, Mitch, Rachel, TB and the rest). 

I'll keep you guys posted with the doctor's findings . Please bear with me while I gather my blogging thoughts back again and my brain is